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[dropcap1]H[/dropcap1]ello everyone! Glad to be back! (As if someone’s reading).  😛

It’s been almost a month since the last time I scribbled something here. I dunno but these past weeks, I just feel so lazy to pound the keyboard. Ideas are in mind but my hand refused to work. Sometimes, I can formulate thoughts while just being idle or riding home from work but when I sit in front of a computer, everything just fades away like a fog clearing after sunrise.  I cannot even come up with a title for this post.

Well I hope I can get over this soon otherwise this blog might be just as idle as my mind.

On other hand, months of “ber” just started. Another year would soon take a bow to let the next contestant in. I wonder what would it be for next year? But I guess I can’t hurry on that one. This year seems to be the toughest one. Everything was going well at the start but slowly declined when May came. That was suppose to be the time of the year I always look forward to since I was born on that month but now I wish it never came. Well, you probably know what I mean based from my previous posts. We lost our precious boy on the day before my birthday so do you think you would still be enjoying the birthdays to come? I don’t think so! I know my son  might not going to be happy with that but right now, I cannot see myself throwing even the littlest party on my next birthday. It still hurts, it still crushes our hearts everytime we think of that day.

Yesterday I was at a department store in a shopping mall and happened to pass by some toys for boys.  I was wondering what could be our baby boy’s favorite toy if he was given a chance to grow. Would he like to have an RC car, an aeroplane , or  a toy gun? Too bad that daddy could not buy him that anymore, nor buy him his first basketball and cap. But I know he is happy where he is now and might not be needed any of those.

Well, I guess I have to get moving now. I hope I can find something interesting to write in here as soon as possible. I do not want this simple page of mine to go to waste. Have a good one to all!